The Long Good bye

When I research dementia, my blog comes up.  It made me think I am misleading others by my title and not writing about dementia but rather how I deal with each day.  Sometimes I like to write how Dave is doing each day.  Lately, he has been sleeping so much.  His circadian rhythm is off as well.  And then there is sundowners.  I try to explain his different moods, often getting disheartened by his lack of participation in life.  But then at three in the morning, Dave is ready to chat.  I am not alone.  I learn from others who have a loved one with similar problems, having the same experiences.  It is like a roller coaster, with it's ups and downs.  One friend told me this is called "the long good bye". Let me not dwell on the inevitable or the sadness of what life once was.  In a few months, we will have been married for fifty years.  Time to crank up the music and get busy living .